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SECRETS OF THE MIND PART 2
my martial art techniques in my mind, visualizing them in greater and greater detail. After a while the experience became as vivid as actually doing the moves in person. As my mind expanded, I was soon able to experiment with new techniques, much more difficult moves that I was unable to physically do, when I was well. As a matter of fact, I now felt that my abilities were endless.
As I delved deeper into my new found mental ability, I practiced unleashing more and more of my minds power. One morning I was awakened in my dark room, the curtains were slightly opened letting in a small shaft of light. I stared at the bright light for a moment and then closed my quickly re-closed my eyes. The brightness had left a perfect image of a window of light, that I could see clearly, even with my eyes still closed. I my mind I used my visualization to imagine myself running toward this light and jumping into the small bright window, surrounded by total darkness. Suddenly I found myself in a place of extreme brightness, I could sense images flying by me that I could not comprehend. I was frightened, but also overwhelmed with a new and higher state of consciousness.
Just as quickly as I had mentally jumped into the light, I turned and jumped back thru, this time, back to the darkness of my room. I lay there for a moment in a state of shock, with sweat pouring down my forehead and into my eyes, yet I felt somehow refreshed and invigorated.
Had I discovered the power to tap into my full mental ability, like the old karate masters ? Over the following weeks, I experimented and learned more about this uncanny ability. I also discovered that our minds have a dark side, and that each of us has a potential for tremendous good or tremendous evil. In fact each of us has some primal inclinations to be a predator.
The Asians might refer to this dichotomy as Yin and Yang. The offsetting energies or qualities, that make the opposing traits possible, such as good and evil, light and dark, compassion and hatred. Without one, there cannot be the other. Nothing is complete without the interaction of the two opposite energies. They are not completely black or white, just as things in life are not completely black or white.
When I got out of the hospital and returned to my busy daily life, I again found little time to explore the far reaches of my mind. Yet somehow, I was changed. I had opened Pandora’s box and what was once reveled to me could no longer be forgotten.
Gradually I began to see the dark side of myself and my actions. Every person harbors a dimension of themselves that we all posses yet try to repress. Emotions such as jealousy, anger, hatred, along with their accompanying physical manifestations, often simmer just below the surface. Our need to be a social animal helps us inhibit our impulses and our actions. However, there just below the surface rages our true animal instincts, survival, dominance, hunger, avoidance of pain.
Many of us can go thru life without ever triggering these base emotions, however under the right circumstances, any of us can step over the edge. No one can know with any degree of certainty, if or when, those long dormant impulses will show their ugly head.
Now I live in fear…fear that those horrible urges will return. They say, that once you have killed, it is easier to kill again, just like an animal that has tasted blood.
I’m alone again now, I feel strangely at peace. The doctor, in his own kind of way, has helped me. Our sessions are over for good. I won’t have to relate or relive my horrible actions ever again. I’ll be leaving this place now, this place that has become somewhat of a refuge for me. I will not have to ever again worry about hurting my friends, or my neighbors. I wished the doctor had understood what I was going thru. I wished he hadn’t forced me to vividly recall the events and the sense of rage that pushed me over the edge.. The orderlies are coming for me now. They are unlocking the handcuffs, from my wrists to free the doctor’s throat but it’s too late. The doctor had made a terrible mistake, and now he has suffered the consequences of his actions.
Maybe there are some places we should not explore like the “secrets of the mind”.
P.I.B.
As I delved deeper into my new found mental ability, I practiced unleashing more and more of my minds power. One morning I was awakened in my dark room, the curtains were slightly opened letting in a small shaft of light. I stared at the bright light for a moment and then closed my quickly re-closed my eyes. The brightness had left a perfect image of a window of light, that I could see clearly, even with my eyes still closed. I my mind I used my visualization to imagine myself running toward this light and jumping into the small bright window, surrounded by total darkness. Suddenly I found myself in a place of extreme brightness, I could sense images flying by me that I could not comprehend. I was frightened, but also overwhelmed with a new and higher state of consciousness.
Just as quickly as I had mentally jumped into the light, I turned and jumped back thru, this time, back to the darkness of my room. I lay there for a moment in a state of shock, with sweat pouring down my forehead and into my eyes, yet I felt somehow refreshed and invigorated.
Had I discovered the power to tap into my full mental ability, like the old karate masters ? Over the following weeks, I experimented and learned more about this uncanny ability. I also discovered that our minds have a dark side, and that each of us has a potential for tremendous good or tremendous evil. In fact each of us has some primal inclinations to be a predator.
The Asians might refer to this dichotomy as Yin and Yang. The offsetting energies or qualities, that make the opposing traits possible, such as good and evil, light and dark, compassion and hatred. Without one, there cannot be the other. Nothing is complete without the interaction of the two opposite energies. They are not completely black or white, just as things in life are not completely black or white.
When I got out of the hospital and returned to my busy daily life, I again found little time to explore the far reaches of my mind. Yet somehow, I was changed. I had opened Pandora’s box and what was once reveled to me could no longer be forgotten.
Gradually I began to see the dark side of myself and my actions. Every person harbors a dimension of themselves that we all posses yet try to repress. Emotions such as jealousy, anger, hatred, along with their accompanying physical manifestations, often simmer just below the surface. Our need to be a social animal helps us inhibit our impulses and our actions. However, there just below the surface rages our true animal instincts, survival, dominance, hunger, avoidance of pain.
Many of us can go thru life without ever triggering these base emotions, however under the right circumstances, any of us can step over the edge. No one can know with any degree of certainty, if or when, those long dormant impulses will show their ugly head.
Now I live in fear…fear that those horrible urges will return. They say, that once you have killed, it is easier to kill again, just like an animal that has tasted blood.
I’m alone again now, I feel strangely at peace. The doctor, in his own kind of way, has helped me. Our sessions are over for good. I won’t have to relate or relive my horrible actions ever again. I’ll be leaving this place now, this place that has become somewhat of a refuge for me. I will not have to ever again worry about hurting my friends, or my neighbors. I wished the doctor had understood what I was going thru. I wished he hadn’t forced me to vividly recall the events and the sense of rage that pushed me over the edge.. The orderlies are coming for me now. They are unlocking the handcuffs, from my wrists to free the doctor’s throat but it’s too late. The doctor had made a terrible mistake, and now he has suffered the consequences of his actions.
Maybe there are some places we should not explore like the “secrets of the mind”.
P.I.B.
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